Life happens despite what you plan

*Me *
* Laura
* Born = 01/11/64
* Mom
* Graduate

*Current Wishes *

:: "Enough money to make life easy on my kids, if even just for a while"::

:: "Just one weekend...never mind, you know"::

:: "Time, time and more time"::

:: "A really great vacation for my whole family"::

:: "To finish school and make bunches of money before arthritis creeps into my hands and makes my life hell"

Current Favorite Quotes and the Wise People that Said Them

:: "Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious." - Brendan Gill::

:: "You're never too old to become younger." - Mae West

:: "Always be nice to your children because they are the ones who will choose your rest home." - Phyllis Diller::

:: "D'you call life a bad job? Never! We've had our ups and downs, we've had our struggles, we've always been poor, but it's been worth it, ay, worth it a hundred times I say when I look round at my children." - W. Somerset Maugham, 'Of Human Bondage'::

:: "For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."- Judy Garland::

Thursday, October 14, 2004

The Actress
The endless artificial smiles, the miles of self trickery
All of the fuzzy edged moments of reality, finally becoming clear

Acting was her life, putting on her face each morning
She recited the lines that were written,
With experience she became much better at ad-libbing her part.
Always ready to say what they all wanted to hear.
To keep the illusion in tact

Her mother scowled from the audience, never quite happy with the performance
Her father, sweet, silent, never dared give his opinion of the play

There was reality once. There was a time of self expression.
She was happy then
Believing that all the other players were off stage and being real, this was her undoing
Her eyes stung, the tears flowed, as she realized
Her reality was their bit part.
She put on her face again
The actress brilliantly playing again, all who watched, awed by her stoic performance
She buried her true artistry and along with it her sense of decency

Always the picture of strength
The audience never aware of the fragile passion and smoldering within.
She went searching for other parts.
Interesting little bit parts and a couple off beat, starring roles
She started believing the illusion herself
Breaking her contract just to see if she would get caught

Then it came along
The ONE. The part an actress looks for her whole life.
She wanted to put so much of herself into the role.
Never had a part touched her inside like this one.

She could have had the starring role

Even if only short term, even after they told her she wasn't right

With the right persuasive techniques

It was hers for the taking and she knew it.

Something made her walk away.

She stopped performing that day.
She no longer put on her face in the morning.
The lines of her weary life showing more deeply around her eyes.

She searches each day now for her truth
No more acting. No more artificial emotions
She wears a genuine smile each morning now

Another actress might take that perfect role
But in her heart, it is hers
If there is to be another perfect role in her life,

She will play it with a clean, true and real heart

After the years of deception, she owes this to herself

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"It's choice, not chance, that determines your destiny." -Jean Nidetch

"In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity." -Albert Einstein

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Mom out
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