Life happens despite what you plan

Current Favorite Quotes and the Wise People that Said Them

:: "Not a shred of evidence exists in favor of the idea that life is serious." - Brendan Gill::

:: "You're never too old to become younger." - Mae West

:: "Always be nice to your children because they are the ones who will choose your rest home." - Phyllis Diller::

:: "D'you call life a bad job? Never! We've had our ups and downs, we've had our struggles, we've always been poor, but it's been worth it, ay, worth it a hundred times I say when I look round at my children." - W. Somerset Maugham, 'Of Human Bondage'::

:: "For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."- Judy Garland::

Friday, October 01, 2004

Just chillin'!!

Been thinking about my grandmother, my dad and my mom alot lately. What were they like when they were younger? What kind of things did they do that I never knew about? Did my mom ever feel like I do right now? I know that I am an awful lot like her in a lot of ways. Funny how you get to a certain age and you start thinking about your parents and grandparents as people, not just the authoritarian figures in your life.

I do know some of the things that mom went through by things that my aunt has told me. It would be nice if we had the kind of relationship where we could talk about our feelings more. I have always been afraid to talk to her. She was never very lavish with approvals and praise. It still bothers me that I feel like I could never make her proud. I work hard to make sure my kids know that I love them and are always proud that they are mine. I would love to know if she ever felt she was at a crossroad like I do now and why she made the choices that she did.

My dad, the ever silent provider, was (pardon the line from a song) the greatest man I never knew. He was never outwardly affectionate. I don't remember alot of hugging from my dad. I don't remember alot of anything about him really. He worked his ass off (2 full time jobs and occasionally a side job)to keep a home and keep 6 kids fed. I always knew that he loved me though. I also know without a doubt that he was absolutely crazy about my mom. He was usually exhausted but he always made time to tease with her and take her out. There are so many things about him that I don't know though. It is now sadly too late for me to ask him. He said something so sweet a few months back though. The therapist at the home was working with him and pointed to a picture of my mom and said, "Frank, who is this?".
Dad: "That's my wife."
Therapist: "No Frank, what is her name?"
Dad: "I don't know, but I know I love her?"
What a guy! Sorry ladies, he's taken!

My grandmother, now there is one hell of a woman and role model as far as I am concerned. Talk about hard lives, we don't know the half of it. She overcame a hell of a lot of obstacles that were beyond her control. I look up to her strength of character on a daily basis. I have always thought about putting what I know about her into a book. If you're interested, ask me, I'll tell you all that I know about her. The things that I do know could fill a novel and a couple of made for TV movies. I am very blessed to have had her in my life. Each day that thoughts of her enter my mind, I miss her all over again. My yard and flower beds could REALLY use her. She had the most amazing gardens. I can't keep a plant alive to save my soul. However, like I always say, there are no goodbyes, only see ya laters. So Gram, I love ya and I'll see ya later.

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A few words from my favorite musical EVER, "Into the Woods".

Check it out,, vveerrryy funny shit!!

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Oh...If life were made of moments,

Even now and then a bad one-!

But if life were only moments,

Then you'd never know you had one.

Let the moment go...Don't forget it for a moment, though.

Just remembering you've had an "and", When you're back to "or"

Makes the "or" mean more, Than it did before.

Now I understand- And it's time to leave the woods.

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Mom out
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