Me
Current Wishes
* Laura
* Born = 01/11/64
* Mom
* Graduate
:: "Enough money to make life easy on my kids, if even just for a while"::
:: "Just one weekend...never mind, you know"::
:: "Time, time and more time"::
:: "A really great vacation for my whole family"::
:: "To finish school and make bunches of money before arthritis creeps into my hands and makes my life hell"
Current Favorite Quotes and
the Wise People that Said Them
:: "Not a shred of evidence exists in favor
of the idea that life is serious." - Brendan Gill::
:: "You're never too old to become younger." - Mae West
:: "Always be nice to your children because they are
the ones who will choose your rest home." - Phyllis Diller::
:: "D'you call life a bad job? Never! We've had our ups and downs,
we've had our struggles, we've always been poor, but it's been
worth it, ay, worth it a hundred times I say when I look round
at my children." - W. Somerset Maugham, 'Of Human Bondage'::
:: "For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."- Judy Garland::
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Well this has been an emotionally draining weekend for me. I don't want to explain it here. I'm tired. I hate conflict and I am adding a new thing to my dislikes list.
Right now... all I want is a hot tub, some soft music, a comfy robe, some soft words said in my ear and a couple of strong arms wrapped around me, making it all go away for a while.
Ya know, there has been an awful lot of shit that I have had to deal with thrown my way in the past 10 - 15 years. I think I have done relatively well. But I truly despise unnecessary bullshit. I dislike attempts being made to manipulate what I think and how I should react. I have also become truly disgusted with being walked on and used. So I am going to work incredibly hard at not being a doormat. I am going to try to weigh each action and reaction that I have before I have them. What I truly dislike more than ANY of this, is people that have NOT been in my shoes and do NOT know what my family has gone through trying to make judgement calls about what they think is best for me and my family. The more I thought about this tonight... the more it pissed me off.
Anyway, this is not the format for that. I will deal with that with the people that I need to deal with.
But my children be forewarned...if I have to take notes and keep them in a notebook about what has been said to you, just so that I can remember them, I will do this. If I have to have a daily reminder call from Dave to remind me about what punishments have been laid down and what rewards should be given, then I will have that. This is a promise to all of you, but especially YOU Melissa. I know you read this. I also know that we have very busy lives. I might not remember to say this to you in the morning. There will be a breaking point where bullshit and manipulative tactics do not work. YOU have the ability to diffuse the time bomb that is ticking here. If you choose not to, do not be surprised if it explodes and you get caught in the crossfire.
Mom out
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